What a crappy month.

After my 'worst session ever' record was broken Thursday as briefly mentioned, I played a decent session yesterday but won just $500 after being up $2500 an hour before quitting. In today's session I was up $2000 half an hour ago when the doom switch went on and I lost a horrendous series of hands and ended up -$1800. When I lose 2 stacks quickly, I feel a bit down, something like 'wow, that was really unlucky'. Then bam bam, two more stacks go sailing just like that, and I think something along the lines of 'I can't believe it happened AGAIN'. THEN I lose two MORE stacks on top of the others and I simply don't have words to describe the pain of it. I just sit there stunned that all those hours of concentration went out the window so fast, and I hate everything for about a minute. Sometimes poker really really sucks, that's all.

Now I am precisely break even for the month and fuming. Time for a break.

Here is my plan of action for next time I want to think about poker:

First, I am going to go through tonight's session, critically analyzing that last fateful half hour. Then I will take the opportunity to look through 5 of the players I have the most hands on, and study how their game differs from mine. It is something I have been wanting to do, but kept putting off for too long, and now it is time. I don't expect to find any grave revelations, but I have enough doubts about my game right now, that a couple of analysis sessions is needed to confirm I am still on top of it.

Have better luck than me.